I am a procrastinator. It's a fact. I leave everything till the last second. From small things like the fact that even if my alarm goes off at 7.30 I don't get out of bed till 8 meaning I have to weigh it up do I eat or do I shower - showering normally wins out. Or big things like choosing what and where I want to study - I enrolled in bible college on the last day of applications.
I think it may be a sickness. Or it could be genetic. Or maybe its because I have always been one of those annoying people who never tried to hard at anything but somehow managed to be slightly above average at it (the trick is to only do things you know you will be good at).
If I was really honest I would say that the reason I procrastinate is that I don't want to fail. If I leave something to the last moment and I'm bad at it, or I make the wrong choice, it dosen't matter because I didn't try that hard or give it much thought anyway.
Right now I am procrastinating. I should be studying. It's at this point when I could cry and say I'm over that I realise that I dislike being a procrastinator. I promise myself that when I've got through this I will do better next time. I will plan in advance. I will study hard. I will make decisions. I never do.
I am a procrastinator. I am a procrastinator and it sucks.
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